I swear, if you haven't tried this stuff yet, you are missing OUT my friend!
Way back, like, almost 4 weeks ago, I had NO IDEA what to do. None. Zip. Zilch. But I just kept taking walks with Dungee and in any spare moment or small bit of quiet time I would sit back and really try, REALLY TRY, to concentrate on what I really wanted.
I did this every day, every morning, every night and every time I was waiting in a line. I turned off my radios, I closed my books, I kept NOT watching TV and with all that extra time... I thought.
I thought first about what kind of jobs that I could get that would support my dream of the Good Food Factory. I should be doing things that support my dream and lead up to it, no?
I focused and thought about being paid to be a writer, and guess what?!?
I am now a "Professional Writer". I get paid to write for a really amazing website called www.fivesprockets.com Based in San Diego, FiveSprockets is a new site that gives you the most amazing tools to create your production (whether it be tv, film, web, etc). FiveSprockets refers to the 5 phases of any production and I am a guest blogger/writer for the site. Be sure to check out my work!
I am also now a "Working Actor". I have been on 2 episodes of The Ex List and even got on one episode with DUNGEE! I had read it was a "dog adoption" scene, so I just took her when I went to check in! They had no choice but to use Dungee for the day and she was a STAR. Here is a picture of Dungee, on set, at lunch break. She made $20 that day!
I am also now a "Model". This one, I think, is the most hilarious. I was cast as a nurse for a print ad and at the shoot met this gentlemen who starred on Days of Our Lives as a potential rapist to Sammy. This may mean nothing to you, but it means a hell of a lot to my Grandma. This is why I am so happy in this photo, I get to show my Grandma Betty that I hung out with Sammy's fictional rapist! Again, this may not make any sense to you, but go with it. It's POWERFUL.
Things were starting to come together with the working aspects, but I was still camping in the campgrounds. My time was running out. They only let you camp for one month a year there. I needed to give Jorma back his truck (he was trapped in his new job/apt downtown with no wheels and no surfboard). Big ups to Jorma for not surfing for a month and lending me his truck. I desperately needed a place to live and I actually thought I had a place two weeks ago.
Then, the night before I was supposed to pay and move in? It all fell through.
I was confused, upset and really angry. NOW what was I going to do? I was scrambling to find a campsite, I had to wait in lines everday to get a site, I was spending money driving from campground to campground. AHHHHH! Then it hit me. I had not once visualized the place that I wanted to live in. I had not created any time to think about it, dream about it and put out what I really wanted.
I thought back to when I lived on the Upper West Side of Manhattan, back to the first apartment that was all my very own. It was only 400 square feet and the only windows faced a brick wall, but it was painted bright yellow. The minute I walked into that yellow apartment with my friend Mandy, I knew it was meant to be mine.
Vintage Pic of the UWS Apt. 2004
Me and Brooklyn: Vintage Pic
I wanted the California version of that little yellow apartment! Except this time, the windows would overlook a little lawn for Dungee to romp in, and maybe there was a white picket fence! I could look out the window while I cooked at Dungee playing! I could have people on a little back deck! I didn't need a lot of space, just something like that little, bitty, yellow apartment...
Oooh man, I dreamt about my California apartment this past week. And you know what? I could feel what it felt like to be in there... Then I did the hardest thing you have to do. Believe that it is going to come to you...
Today I introduce you to my new apartment. It's a detached house (Granny Flat) just 5 blocks from Swami's surf break and the Self Realization Fellowship. This area is considered one of the most harmonious in the world. The house, when I first saw it, took my breath away. You'll see why...
The Universe really nailed it on this one. Right down to the white picket fence and the beautiful lemon tree and blooming lavender. I mean, this was the exact California version of my beloved yellow apartment, the house itself is yellow too.
I was feeling so amazing after signing the lease and driving back over to see the place I had almost forgotten about the three packages that I had received in the mail!
The first package I opened was from my friend, Lisa. She had sent it to me a while back when I thought I was getting the other apartment, and then the package got delayed in the mail a bit. It finally arrived this morning as I picked up my mail on the way to meet my new landlord and sign the lease. Right after I saw the apartment and I jumped back in the camper, I opened the package and there was a book in there labeled "Medicine Cards" and worn bag with cards in it. Inside the book was a letter written from Lisa (dated 11/12), with the first line reading "Congratulations on your new place!"
How's THAT for perfect timing?
I read her letter and was once again awed at her inspiration and beauty. She said she'd meditate with the cards and ask them questions. I tried it and flipped through, pulling out "Mouse", I opened the book and as I flipped through to find Mouse I came upon a little note Lisa had written in the book, on the page before Mouse. hmmmmmmmmmm
These miraculous things are happening to me because of something that I have been repeatedly trying at. Focusing. Thinking. Dreaming. and then... BELIEVING.
The world is yours, all you have to do is dream it and believe it.
I am off to dream and believe in the margarita party that I am going to host in my new little yellow house. Everyone is invited.
1 comments:
Hello Amanda.
Congratulations on getting a house, it looks to be a great pad.
Thanks for sharing everything with us. You have my support; continue to search yourself for the answers. I'm going to use some of the techniques you used to realize my dream as well.
I've decided to buy a little Winnebago or VW-type van to take to NYC and sell Christmas trees this season. I'm sitting hear at home in Buffalo waiting for some phone calls and I checked out your page. It's very exciting and I enjoy your insight.
I think that we make decisions similarly. I agree with how you search yourself for the answers to your life decisions. I believe in that too. Getting the answer takes what seems like forever most of the time. But once you have a clear vision, then you can focus to obtain something without any doubt present to slow you down.
I like how you went with the yellow apartment. Taking things from the past has always helped me through life’s decisions. It makes things familiar and more comfortable. My decision to become a Christmas tree salesman is partly based on a past experience I had as a bike messenger in the city.
Continue to use time to reflect and self discovery. Use my sister as someone to reflect upon, she will help. You just have to catch her at the right moment.
Good luck in Southern Cal, break a leg or two. You have all my best wishes.
Adam
PS: I'll never forget the time we first met, I was a pip-squeak and you were in my sister's room with Kelly and all four of us were acting crazy. We were just making all types of commotion and making weird sounds like a scene from Labyrinth.
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